It was a relatively quiet Christmas for me. I didn’t do anything grand, just lounged around with my kindle in hand. I finished one book, and started another. I enjoyed it that way.
There was a time when I was big on shopping this time of year. The excitement of the malls, giving and getting.
If you were to ask before what I wanted for Christmas, What would I have said? Maybe a new Laptop, because it would be really helpful and convenient, and well, my kindle is getting kind of slow.
I don’t want much. I’m a simple girl. I’m content wearing my pajamas all day, curled up with something good to read. As I scroll through my social media feeds, I didn’t feel a hint of envy, as folks showed off their Christmas goodies, and experiences. Sometimes when you feel that something is missing from your life, a feeling of jealousy may wash over you watching people experience what you long for.
There was none of that for me. My true happiness can’t be measured with things. Gifts won’t make me genuinely happy. Sure they provide short term happiness, and instant pleasure, but all the money in the world can’t buy true contentment.
That is the best way to describe my feelings regarding my job search as the year winds down. The year may very well end, the way it started, with me on the hunt. I had high hopes, with realistic expectations of course, yet I’m still so disappointed. Just to be clear, I do have a job, and while I do enjoy many aspects of this job, and I am grateful for the flexibility it provided while I was in school, I am ready to start a new. I have been ready to start for a long time. I know the state of the job market with college grads, and I continue to keep an open mind.
My disappointment doesn’t necessarily mean its all bad. I have been on a quite a few interviews just in the last month and half. I was even invited back for a second interview at one company. I’ve never had as many as I’ve had in such a short period. So while, I am disappointed, I am also excited, and motivated to keep pushing as I’ve ever been.
I’m sure there are many people who have wondered what their first post should be. Should you introduce yourself, or should you just jump right in. Honestly, I’m not sure. After all, I’m freshly new to all this. What I do know is I look forward to writing and sharing here.