The last few weeks have been challenging. I have constantly been questioning myself, which is never good, and have been dealing with quite a few disappointments, plus the added stresses that come with looking for a job, and also visiting grad programs.
Sometimes it all gets so overwhelming that I find myself doing nothing. It is just so much easier to not deal with any of it, but I know that I can’t keep ignoring the tasks at hand. They aren’t going to go away. I have to deal with reality.
So I’ve spent part of my weekend very low key. I needed to evaluate myself, remind myself what my goals were, and assess my “game plan”. Are the tasks too much, or do I just have too much going on? It was still overwhelming, but it needed to be done. It needed to done so I regain my focus and my drive.
I know I’ll feel like this again. I just don’t want to get to the point where I do nothing.