“Where am I going?”
That is the question I asked myself after sending out my latest rounds of resumes. Its a questions I ask myself after exhaustion, disappointment, and sometimes out of sheer confusion.
Sometimes it feels like I am on the road to nowhere. Sometimes I wonder if I am even on the road. Should I even be on the road?
When I first noticed that I wasn’t heading in the direction that was good for me, the right thing to do would of been to make an exit, but I kept going. I kept going, until I got so lost, that finding my way has been no easy task.
Its hard to see my friends have it together. Meanwhile I’m still trying to figure it out. Usually, I’m trying to figure out where it went wrong. I’m still trying to figuring where I went wrong, and trying to right the ship at the same time. The clash of feelings is enough to drive me crazy. Maybe that is one of my biggest problems, more thinking and less doing.
Why was it so easy for everyone else? We went to the same schools, we graduated the same year. Why is it so hard for me? What trait do they have that I am so glaring lacking? What did they do right that I did wrong? I’m sure the answer isn’t so simple, but when you feel like your going nowhere, you grasp for something.
Everyone says these struggles are normal. Yet I only read of these normal struggles of others through the world wide web. Its hard when your peers don’t share your experience. You really do feel alone.
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