It went fast didn’t it?
My plan was to originally post twice a week. I have fallen short there, but I have managed to post once a week, which isn’t bad. Its at the very least, consistent. I’m still planning to add to that consistency. I’m blown away by the visits my blog received on days there weren’t any new posts. Talk about encouragement and a confidence boost. Motivation to keep blogging. It is very much appreciated.
I also started new things at work. Where I once had a lot of idle to time to read blogs, comment, social media and toy with ideas, I am now very busy. It is a good kind busy, but busy nonetheless. Any free time or idle time I have, I rather just relax.
So, we’re out with January, and ready to see what February brings.
One of my goals for the New Year was to do more of what scares me. It is so much easier said that done. It is so much easier, when your feeling optimistic, and upbeat. I’ve made some purposeful strides in this area. Some of which I hope to share later on. What I’ve learned is, just because you’ve made a up your mind to do something, doesn’t make the fear go away.
I believed making up my mind wasn’t just the first step, it was the biggest step. It now made it real. This was going to happen now, because I am going to make this happen. I’m not just saying it, I intend it. Still fear lingered, and doubt hovered. I didn’t expect to feel so much fear and have so many doubts. At first, I thought they were legitimate reasons I created to justify some of my decisions. But here I am, ready to go, and the voices of fear and doubt were ready to go with me.
Some of my fears may be legitimate, but I know that I’ll never know whats on the other side until I go after it. Maybe fear is suppose to travel with me on this journey. Maybe it is suppose to make me stronger, build character. It is all new territory for me. I’ve never been one to take much chances. My fear of failing would leave me doing nothing. So no more “what ifs” or “should haves”. I’m going all the way.
I saw this on Facebook, and all I could think was “this is so me”. I’m sure I wasn’t the only one. We have a list of goals, we didn’t accomplish them. So we continue to add them to the new list of goals that we’ve created for ourselves. Before you know it, nothing was accomplished.
While the quote struck close to me, It didn’t make me feel like a failure. After sitting on it for a few days, I felt determined. I felt determined because I set each goal for a reason. These weren’t things I pulled out of the air.
I’m going to go back to the heart of my goals. Life can throw many things in our way, and we may forget our purpose. Once I get back in touch with the heart of my goals, my motivation and drive will flow easily. I’m sure of it.